April 29, 2004

My devotion to stained glass -2

I was hungry to discover and learn more about stained glass, I wanted to know all about it.
I accepted everything I saw or heard with delight and tried to connect it to stained glass work. My working life was devoted to absorbing knowledge about stained glass.

There were failures and disappointments every day, at times it was like running into a stone wall...........
However, one day I realized that these experiences would eventually bring me a big fortune; my failures and hardships molded my future work.
Regrettably , I realized this very late and wasted a lot of energy and time because I did not understand the importance of this way of learning.
I still spend a lot of money to cover my failures. I don't know when I could stop making such a wasteful investment on myself!

I would have had learned a great deal more quickly if I had had excellent teachers.
I had to learn it on my own, which was very time consuming.
However, it was beneficial in the long run as I was able to learn by myself how to express my ideas in glass more truthfully; this created a good basis for a career in stained glass.

Stained glass work will not hold attention if it is not impressive, merely well designed.
There is no point to make such works.
I want my works to give kind and pleasant messages to people, no matter how unsophisticated and unskillful they are.
It would be wonderful if I could keep contact with people and stained glass without losing my pure and natural heart.

Posted by TT at 06:52 PM

April 19, 2004

My devotion to stained glass -1

I began working in stained glass twenty three years ago. Already 23 years have passed, still, for 23 years, time has gone by so quickly!

Looking back over my career, I realize my views, beliefs and ideas about stained glass have been subtly changing over that period.

I had to change my way of thinking depending on my circumstances. However, I can confidently say that I always looked forward with positive thinking when I was working in stained glass.

I have experienced a lot of sadness, pain and things that made me want to give up.
It would be endless if I started to mention each of my experiences .........
But, being able to work as a stained glass artist is a gift - it has given me so much joy, pleasure and happiness that I have been able to overcome sadness and hardship.

When I first started to work in stained glass, I was driven by ambtion.
I exhausted a lot of youthful energy working late into the night, biting the bullet undauntedly.
I had a severe situation.....I did not have many commissions and was extremely poor.
I was frustrated. I became blind to my own faults and behaved as if I was the only righteous person in the world and I even became a quarrelsome person.
I was an immature and unpleasant guy (I now regret it.).

In those days I depicted only images of my frustration in stained glass works.
I just wanted to express my honest feeling as much as I could.
Thus, I was able to keep my balance by expressing my feeling in works and letting my frustration out under such a severe condition.
It was not a good attitude at all.

What supported me in those days was my unfulfilled dream.
I wanted to brush up my design skill and work techniques and get an establish position in the stained glass world. I was too selfish to take care of my family. I never realized this dream would be made possible by the assistance of my family who supported me.
I thought only about myself. I feel ashamed of my egoistical behavior.

I think the distorted negative energy was the only source of my vitality in those days.

Posted by TT at 03:00 PM